Thank You God, for allowing me to see myself for how I really am. The pain I go through as I see how low I can sink is a thousand times more precious than any self delusion or unawareness of my faults, no matter how pleasurable and comforting that self delusion might be, no matter how blissful ignorance might be.
If I did not see me how I really am, I would not be able to see You for who You really are, in all Your graciousness and mercy.
Thank You.