What I Am Thankful For

What I am most thankful for today are my problems.  I guess today I realized that if it weren't for my problems, I wouldn't be so close to God.  I mean the sins and wrong ways of thinking and acting that I've dealt with my whole life.  The things about me that make me feel like shit when I reflect on myself, are the very things that have forced me to cling to God, to my only aid; the things that make my emptiness and nothingness so apparent to me that I can't do anything but run to fill myself with Him.

I think about what my life would be like if I didn't have the struggles that I do.  I used to always think, wow, life would be so much better, I would be such a better person.  But I don't know if I would have the relationship with God that I have now, and it is only that that makes me who I am.

Today, I thank God for my crappiness, and for Him bringing me closer to Him by means of them.